Imagine my surprise when I logged on to WordPress this morning to discover ALL of my blog posts had been deleted.
My stomach got sick immediately. Granted, my blog isn’t anything special. Nothing glitzy or heavily-trafficked like many of the bigger bloggers out there. But still. This is my tiny sliver of the Internet. A place I feel like I am safe in talking about my life; a place I feel like I can somehow make a difference in the life of someone else.
Immediately I got defensive. “Who did this??” I thought. “Who in the world hacked into my blog and made this nightmare happen??”
Thankfully, I had all of my posts saved to my laptop hard drive. But what a headache to go through and repost everything. Tears came to my eyes thinking about all of the time and energy I put into each post, only to have them all simply taken away by some devious person. I text messaged my best friend and told her what happened. Why are people so bored and intent on making other people’s lives miserable? And for the sake of what??
But then, humility. Oh yes, humility. That seems to be the theme in my life lately.
On my blogger’s “dashboard” (which, for you non-bloggers, is the command center of all of our posting), under “posts”, I noticed “trash 51”. Surely if someone had wanted to make my blogging life difficult, they wouldn’t have forgotten to empty the trash can of all of the posts they worked so hard to delete.
And then I remembered that yesterday I went through my post dashboard and decided to “clean up” my drafts that have been sitting for months. Somehow I must’ve clicked the “select all” and subsequently “trashed” all of my posts. All of them. And then busily went to attend to my son who woke up from his nap with a special “diaper surprise” for me….
No hacker. Just me being incompetent and busy.
Isn’t that the way we all react in certain situations sometimes? We always think worst-case-scenario and automatically point the finger at someone else. Because surly our current situation is not a direct result of our own choices. Right? Someone has to be to blame, and it certainly can’t be little ole me…
It is easier blaming someone else instead of realizing that when we point our finger we actually have three more fingers pointing back at ourselves.
And so today I am thankful that my blog posts are not all gone. I apologize if you got a million and one notifications from my blog as I went through and re-published my old posts. And next time I will be a little more careful when I am editing my dashboard. 😉